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Karb....

Main karb me mubtila hun...but aziat hy...bht durd hy...jism o jaan me jese aik aag hy Jo Meri soch ko bhatti me pakti ent'on ki trha pakah j rakh deti hy...pr ye durd is garam saikh se bhi sakoon nhi pata...kabhi kabhi khud ko bht bebas pati hn aur to deti hn...phir sochti hn khud ko ab k badal dalon pr na Jane kyoon main to pore jee jaan see badalna chahti hn pr badla he nhi jata...koi raasta,,,koi formula,,,koi tarkeeb aisi milti he nhi k jisko ikhtiar kr k main khudko badal dalon...kabhi kabhi mujhay lagta hy change agaya hy...main badal gai hun...pr phir kuch aisa ho jata hy k mjhy yaqeen krna prta hy main wesi he hun...apni asal Hal'ut main...phir aik bechaini ....aik tarap Meri zaat ka aa'hata kr laiti hy...karb mazeed berh jata hy...durd itna hota hy k kulbula uth'ti hun...

Apne aap ko badal dalna duniya ka mushkil tareen kaam hy...duniya k sanchay me khud ko dhalna namumkin hy...

Khudko badalne k liye mjhy aik aise sach ko apnana hoga jo k SACH to hy pr mjhy qabool nhi...

Jee Haan....
RAYAA'KAARI SACH HY....
Pr mjhy qabool nhi...

Written by Fehmida Chaudhary
24th June 2017

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