Kuch dino pehla main zehni jismani aur kalbi tor pay had darja nidhaal thi.Is qadr bejaan pa rahi thi apnay ap ko k lagta tha k rooh ki moat wakiya ho chuki hay..Aur jism k teh'khanay main jaan nam ki cheez he nahi..Main nay apnay apko sambhalnay ki bohat koshish ki per NAHI kisi tor sakoon ata tha na qarar..Tou bila akhir main nay her durd o ghum ko ..ranj o alum ko ik ghutri main bandha aur chor aye RAB ki adalat k derwazay per aur loat aye USKI dehleez say bina kuch kahay...Uski Zaat pe chor diye saray faislay...Usi ko waqeel kia apna...Usi ko munsif aur apnay muqadmay ki shunwai k liye wahan ruki bhi nahi....Mujhay kamil yaqeen hay k wo Bayinsafi nahi kerta ...Usay sub khabar hay..Sub pata hay....Wo sub bhi jo main nay kabhi kisi say nahi kaha.......kisi say bhi nahi......kabhi bhi nahi........
Mujhay jo thokarain apnon say aur gairon say milin uski bhi main shukarguzar hon apnay RAB ki k agar main in kutnaheyon say na guzarti tou ajj itni mazboot aasab ki malik na hoti ...Kisi say bhi tawakoo lagana chor di main nay.......Meri galti k main nay ibn e adam k darwazay khatkhataey, madad mangi aur sub say jab mayoos ho gai tou RAB say faryad ki .....Galat tou howa mujhse bhi aur iska mujhay aetiraf hay....
Allah ki laathi beawaz hay,,,,us k yahan dair hay andhair nahi...Haq bat hay .....100% haq bat hay...Aur aisa he hay...haqeeqat bhi yehi hay........
Pata bhi hay,,, shuru say he aisa tha k main jisko bhi izzat o tauqeer deti hon na wohi mujhay apnay qadmon talay rondta hay....Jis k aanso ponchon wohi bad main ansoon ki sogat deta hay mujhay....Jis k zakhm pay marham lagaon wohi phir mujhay zakhm deta hay.....Jis k honton pay tabasum ki wajah main he hon wohi mujhay sab say ziada malool kerta hay....Jisko girtay ko sahara don wo khara ho ker mujhay he gira deta hay....
Mujhay sub mehsoos hota hay...sub maloom hota hay phir bhi main sub pee jati hon....log samajhtay hain jhali hay bewakoof hay samajti he nahi.........
Main jo apni zaat ka haq gazab ker k bethi hon sub k haqooq ka khayal kerti hon...Per mujh per mera bi kuch haq hay ye jannay main zamana laga mujhay......aik taweel arsa .......
Jab ibn e adam zameeni khuda bannay lagta hay na tou WO oper wala dor asmaan say sub dekh raha hota hay..Wo jo khaliq e kainat hay jo apni zaat main kisi ko shareek nahi kerta aur jo shirk ko sakht napasand kerta hay yahan tak k wo meherban wo raheem shirk kernay walay ko kabhi maufi he nahi deta.....Tou jab zameeni khuda us pak RAB k qanoon ko apnay hathon tar tar ker dain tou US pak zaat ko jalal ata hay...Jab rizq jaisi cheiz per bhi insan apni marzi chalana shuru ker dain tou Us Pak zaat ko tab bhi jalal ata hay k ye kam tou sirf uska hay...sirf uska....
Pata nahi aisa kyoon hay....Kafan main tou jaib hoti bhi nahi....log nama e amal bhernay k bajaye bank balance bhertay hain...Ye bhool ker k Allah k nizam ko disbalance ker k wo us k gazab ko awaz de rahay hain aur apnay liye ik dardnak azab khareed rahah hain....
Mushkil k din hamaisha nahi rahtay....Na he meray rahain gay INSHALLAH...abhi hisab baqi hay ....Allah mujhay mayoos nahi karay ga.....itna tou mujhay kamil yaqeen hay...Mujhay insaaf chaheye bas aur kuch bhi nahi...Yahin isi duniya main...Mujhay ab aur nahi rona....Khushyon per mera bhi haq hay aur ye haq meray RAB nay mujhay dia hay koi isay mujhse nahi cheen sakta ....
Aaah main jo asr hay wo duniya ki kisi bandook ki goli main nahi......cheer dalti hay...chun'ni ker daiti hay...tehas nehas ker daiti hay.....Kabhi kisi ki aah na lo.......kabhi bhi nahi........Duniya main jhoot ko sach kehnay say jhoot sach nahi ho jata ...gunah tou akhir gunah he hay...jiski saza barhaq hay.......Is duniya main bhi aur roz e hashr main bhi..........
Fehmida Chaudhary
4th January 2012
Mujhay jo thokarain apnon say aur gairon say milin uski bhi main shukarguzar hon apnay RAB ki k agar main in kutnaheyon say na guzarti tou ajj itni mazboot aasab ki malik na hoti ...Kisi say bhi tawakoo lagana chor di main nay.......Meri galti k main nay ibn e adam k darwazay khatkhataey, madad mangi aur sub say jab mayoos ho gai tou RAB say faryad ki .....Galat tou howa mujhse bhi aur iska mujhay aetiraf hay....
Allah ki laathi beawaz hay,,,,us k yahan dair hay andhair nahi...Haq bat hay .....100% haq bat hay...Aur aisa he hay...haqeeqat bhi yehi hay........
Pata bhi hay,,, shuru say he aisa tha k main jisko bhi izzat o tauqeer deti hon na wohi mujhay apnay qadmon talay rondta hay....Jis k aanso ponchon wohi bad main ansoon ki sogat deta hay mujhay....Jis k zakhm pay marham lagaon wohi phir mujhay zakhm deta hay.....Jis k honton pay tabasum ki wajah main he hon wohi mujhay sab say ziada malool kerta hay....Jisko girtay ko sahara don wo khara ho ker mujhay he gira deta hay....
Mujhay sub mehsoos hota hay...sub maloom hota hay phir bhi main sub pee jati hon....log samajhtay hain jhali hay bewakoof hay samajti he nahi.........
Main jo apni zaat ka haq gazab ker k bethi hon sub k haqooq ka khayal kerti hon...Per mujh per mera bi kuch haq hay ye jannay main zamana laga mujhay......aik taweel arsa .......
Jab ibn e adam zameeni khuda bannay lagta hay na tou WO oper wala dor asmaan say sub dekh raha hota hay..Wo jo khaliq e kainat hay jo apni zaat main kisi ko shareek nahi kerta aur jo shirk ko sakht napasand kerta hay yahan tak k wo meherban wo raheem shirk kernay walay ko kabhi maufi he nahi deta.....Tou jab zameeni khuda us pak RAB k qanoon ko apnay hathon tar tar ker dain tou US pak zaat ko jalal ata hay...Jab rizq jaisi cheiz per bhi insan apni marzi chalana shuru ker dain tou Us Pak zaat ko tab bhi jalal ata hay k ye kam tou sirf uska hay...sirf uska....
Pata nahi aisa kyoon hay....Kafan main tou jaib hoti bhi nahi....log nama e amal bhernay k bajaye bank balance bhertay hain...Ye bhool ker k Allah k nizam ko disbalance ker k wo us k gazab ko awaz de rahay hain aur apnay liye ik dardnak azab khareed rahah hain....
Mushkil k din hamaisha nahi rahtay....Na he meray rahain gay INSHALLAH...abhi hisab baqi hay ....Allah mujhay mayoos nahi karay ga.....itna tou mujhay kamil yaqeen hay...Mujhay insaaf chaheye bas aur kuch bhi nahi...Yahin isi duniya main...Mujhay ab aur nahi rona....Khushyon per mera bhi haq hay aur ye haq meray RAB nay mujhay dia hay koi isay mujhse nahi cheen sakta ....
Aaah main jo asr hay wo duniya ki kisi bandook ki goli main nahi......cheer dalti hay...chun'ni ker daiti hay...tehas nehas ker daiti hay.....Kabhi kisi ki aah na lo.......kabhi bhi nahi........Duniya main jhoot ko sach kehnay say jhoot sach nahi ho jata ...gunah tou akhir gunah he hay...jiski saza barhaq hay.......Is duniya main bhi aur roz e hashr main bhi..........
Fehmida Chaudhary
4th January 2012