Khamoshiyan jab labon pay tallay dal deti hain tou lakh chahnay k bawajood na tou ap ro saktay ho na khul k hans saktay ho...na kha pee saktay ho na so saktay ho....ajab he dhang ho jatay hain jab udasiyan jism k raag o jaan main gardish kernay lagti hain....
Jab ap lakh chahnay k bawajood kisi say mohabat khatum nahi ker saktay....tou uska apko zaleel kerna bhi bhata hay...wo jaisay khail bhi khailay ap seh jatay ho...kyoon k us main kisi ka dosh nahi hay....ye raah tou khud hum nay apnay liye chuni hoti hay....tou shikayat kaisi....shikwa kaisa.....
Tanhai ki aag jab apki rooh ko jhulsati hay tou ap us per sabr ka jitna bhi chirkao kerlo....ye aag bujhti nahi hay...phailti jati hay ....ye aag hamarai rooh tak to jhulsa k rakh deti hay..per aksar hamain pata he nahi chalta k hum jal jal k khatum ho rahay hain ....kyoon k koi anjana sa sahara hamain apnay ird gird mehsoos hota hay....per aisa hamaisha nahi hota...kabhi kabhi hum ander he ander jal ker khakster ho jatay hain aur ahsas hota bhi hay tou to bohat dair ho jati hay.....tab tk hum Rakh ka dhair ban chukay hotay hain.....Hamari awaz sirf hamain he sunai deti hay......us rakh k dhair say aah o baqa aur siskiyon ko koi aur nahi sun sakta ...hamaray siwa.....
Zindagi may jab apka aetibar bar bar aur her bar tootay tou shayad hum logon se dore isi liye ho jatay hain k humay dasay janay ka durd aur aetibar tootnay ka dar pta hota hay....Hum khud ko khilonay ki terha dosron k hathon mazeed barbad honay ki himmat kho chukay hotay hain...
Zindagi ki tamana khatum ho jaye tou apko kisi bhi cheez say koi farq nahi perta.......kyoon k ap apna apna mohabat k qarzay ki mud main girwi rakhwa chukay hotay hain.......ap khud apnay nahi hotay tou koi apka kia hoga....
Khud azziyati nay mujhay bohat sahara dia umr bhar....is nay mera sath kabhi nahi chora....jab koi nahi hota tou bhi ye mere sath hoti hay....isi ka sahara hay mujhay.......
Mujhay kehna tou aur bhi bohat kuch tha ......per ........Mujhay ab kuch nahi kehna.......k main baqi ati jati sanson ko mazeed dukhi nahi dekhna chahti ...Main duniya say mutnafir nahi hon......per main ab aur nibha bhi nahi sakti is say.....main thak gai hon......main bohat thak gai hon.....main nay kal k liye sohna chore dia hay.....main nay khud ko hallat k dharay per chor dia hay....jahan le chalay ye mujhay......per meri na manzil hay ab koi .......na umeed hay kisi se mujhay.......wo jo oper betha hay wo kahan le jata hay......ye dekhna hay mujhay.....kitna aur rulata hay.......ye main bhi dekhon zara........Intiha tak jaonge main bhi....ye usko ko paata hay.....jo azma raha hay mujhay.......
Fehmida Chaudhary
18th may 2013
Jab ap lakh chahnay k bawajood kisi say mohabat khatum nahi ker saktay....tou uska apko zaleel kerna bhi bhata hay...wo jaisay khail bhi khailay ap seh jatay ho...kyoon k us main kisi ka dosh nahi hay....ye raah tou khud hum nay apnay liye chuni hoti hay....tou shikayat kaisi....shikwa kaisa.....
Tanhai ki aag jab apki rooh ko jhulsati hay tou ap us per sabr ka jitna bhi chirkao kerlo....ye aag bujhti nahi hay...phailti jati hay ....ye aag hamarai rooh tak to jhulsa k rakh deti hay..per aksar hamain pata he nahi chalta k hum jal jal k khatum ho rahay hain ....kyoon k koi anjana sa sahara hamain apnay ird gird mehsoos hota hay....per aisa hamaisha nahi hota...kabhi kabhi hum ander he ander jal ker khakster ho jatay hain aur ahsas hota bhi hay tou to bohat dair ho jati hay.....tab tk hum Rakh ka dhair ban chukay hotay hain.....Hamari awaz sirf hamain he sunai deti hay......us rakh k dhair say aah o baqa aur siskiyon ko koi aur nahi sun sakta ...hamaray siwa.....
Zindagi may jab apka aetibar bar bar aur her bar tootay tou shayad hum logon se dore isi liye ho jatay hain k humay dasay janay ka durd aur aetibar tootnay ka dar pta hota hay....Hum khud ko khilonay ki terha dosron k hathon mazeed barbad honay ki himmat kho chukay hotay hain...
Zindagi ki tamana khatum ho jaye tou apko kisi bhi cheez say koi farq nahi perta.......kyoon k ap apna apna mohabat k qarzay ki mud main girwi rakhwa chukay hotay hain.......ap khud apnay nahi hotay tou koi apka kia hoga....
Khud azziyati nay mujhay bohat sahara dia umr bhar....is nay mera sath kabhi nahi chora....jab koi nahi hota tou bhi ye mere sath hoti hay....isi ka sahara hay mujhay.......
Mujhay kehna tou aur bhi bohat kuch tha ......per ........Mujhay ab kuch nahi kehna.......k main baqi ati jati sanson ko mazeed dukhi nahi dekhna chahti ...Main duniya say mutnafir nahi hon......per main ab aur nibha bhi nahi sakti is say.....main thak gai hon......main bohat thak gai hon.....main nay kal k liye sohna chore dia hay.....main nay khud ko hallat k dharay per chor dia hay....jahan le chalay ye mujhay......per meri na manzil hay ab koi .......na umeed hay kisi se mujhay.......wo jo oper betha hay wo kahan le jata hay......ye dekhna hay mujhay.....kitna aur rulata hay.......ye main bhi dekhon zara........Intiha tak jaonge main bhi....ye usko ko paata hay.....jo azma raha hay mujhay.......
Fehmida Chaudhary
18th may 2013