Main ik beti hon maa baap ki izzaton pay qurban ho janay wali...Un k her dukh dard main saath nibhanay wali..Un k liye pamal ho janay wali......
Main ik bewi hon Ik tamana ka sheher jahaiz main saath lanay wali larki..In umeedon k saath k ab meri zindagi main zakhon pay marham laganay wala shah'kaar meri zindagi main agaya hay...ye sochne wali larki...
Per qismat ki siyahi tou aik he thi na muqadar bhi wohi raha.. Wo shaks bhi khilari tha us ko apnay siwa sub bura lagta tha ... Wo khud apna pujari ap tha...Hath berha ker usko ahsaas e kamtari k atha samandar say nikalte howay pata na tha k bahar ate he usne apnay mohsin ko he wapis dakhailna hay ....Aur wo khud kinaray per khara meri hansi urata raha ...kehkahay lagata raha... gungunata raha ...Main doobti rahi...Main roti rahi... Tarapti rahi...Aur phir ghar ko aag lag gai ghar k chiragh se......Maine khamoshi ko apna hamsafar bana lia...Ye naya hamsafar kabhi tou dil k konay main beth ker saray manzer dekhta rehta....aur kabhi dil ki devarain tore ker bahar anay ko beqarar ho jata...bara mushkil tha isko sambhalna...bohat mushkil.......
Shayad khamoshi bara jurm thi....RAB ki nazar main bhi.......Maine koshish he nahi ki wahwaila kernay ki......chup chap saray dard k manzar apnay ander utar liye........
Ye alag bat k roz meri zaat k sehra main ghum k badal garajte aur khoon k ansoon ki barish hoti...
Shayad main pather k nagar main pathron k saath rehte rehte pather ho chuki thi...
Aik aisa pather jis k jazbat freeze ho chukay hon..Bas kabhi kabhi ankhon se sawan ki jhari bin mausam barasti thi....
Main ik Maa hon...Tanha Maa...
Main her rishtay k farz nibhatay nibhatay khud apni bhi nahi rahi...
Ajj main ye jan laiwa iqrar kerti hon k ...Ristay natay , jazbay kuch nahi hotay....kuch bhi nahi...Sub aggraaz k bandhan hain
Rasston ki thakan to utar he jati hay...Per ROOH KI THAKAN ka kia karon main...Kahan jaon main....Kidher jaon main......
Main Khud kahin dore reh gai hon bohat dore ..Kahin kho gai hon main ....Ab kon dhonday ga mujhay ???
Mujhay to khud apna pata nahi hay ...Aur atay qadmon k nishan tou apnay hathon se main khud he mitta aye thi...Kia mila lambhi musafat say....Aabla pai...Ruswai ....Tanhai.........
Pyar bante bante khud apnay hisaa to main alag kerna bhool he gai.....Haath khali...Dil Khali...Duniya khali...
Aur ik Mera haqeer be-wajood sawali
Fehmida Chaudhary....♥♥♥
Main ik bewi hon Ik tamana ka sheher jahaiz main saath lanay wali larki..In umeedon k saath k ab meri zindagi main zakhon pay marham laganay wala shah'kaar meri zindagi main agaya hay...ye sochne wali larki...
Per qismat ki siyahi tou aik he thi na muqadar bhi wohi raha.. Wo shaks bhi khilari tha us ko apnay siwa sub bura lagta tha ... Wo khud apna pujari ap tha...Hath berha ker usko ahsaas e kamtari k atha samandar say nikalte howay pata na tha k bahar ate he usne apnay mohsin ko he wapis dakhailna hay ....Aur wo khud kinaray per khara meri hansi urata raha ...kehkahay lagata raha... gungunata raha ...Main doobti rahi...Main roti rahi... Tarapti rahi...Aur phir ghar ko aag lag gai ghar k chiragh se......Maine khamoshi ko apna hamsafar bana lia...Ye naya hamsafar kabhi tou dil k konay main beth ker saray manzer dekhta rehta....aur kabhi dil ki devarain tore ker bahar anay ko beqarar ho jata...bara mushkil tha isko sambhalna...bohat mushkil.......
Shayad khamoshi bara jurm thi....RAB ki nazar main bhi.......Maine koshish he nahi ki wahwaila kernay ki......chup chap saray dard k manzar apnay ander utar liye........
Ye alag bat k roz meri zaat k sehra main ghum k badal garajte aur khoon k ansoon ki barish hoti...
Shayad main pather k nagar main pathron k saath rehte rehte pather ho chuki thi...
Aik aisa pather jis k jazbat freeze ho chukay hon..Bas kabhi kabhi ankhon se sawan ki jhari bin mausam barasti thi....
Main ik Maa hon...Tanha Maa...
Main her rishtay k farz nibhatay nibhatay khud apni bhi nahi rahi...
Ajj main ye jan laiwa iqrar kerti hon k ...Ristay natay , jazbay kuch nahi hotay....kuch bhi nahi...Sub aggraaz k bandhan hain
Rasston ki thakan to utar he jati hay...Per ROOH KI THAKAN ka kia karon main...Kahan jaon main....Kidher jaon main......
Main Khud kahin dore reh gai hon bohat dore ..Kahin kho gai hon main ....Ab kon dhonday ga mujhay ???
Mujhay to khud apna pata nahi hay ...Aur atay qadmon k nishan tou apnay hathon se main khud he mitta aye thi...Kia mila lambhi musafat say....Aabla pai...Ruswai ....Tanhai.........
Pyar bante bante khud apnay hisaa to main alag kerna bhool he gai.....Haath khali...Dil Khali...Duniya khali...
Aur ik Mera haqeer be-wajood sawali
Fehmida Chaudhary....♥♥♥