Wahid Khushi...

Meri mout ,,,, meri zindagi ki wo "wahid khushi" hy jo meray mernay k bad mujhay milaygi.

Written by Fehmida Chaudhary
17th May 2019

"Dum" ka marz...

Park ki bench pe bethi wo shayad ro rhi thi. Mujhay to aisa he lga. Tissue paper see apne umandte ansoo pochti us larki ko dekh kr maine apna rukh uski bench ki tarf mor lia. wo mujhy apni taraf aata dekh k sambhal k Beth gai. Us k baraber beth k salam kerhty maine muskura k dostana andaz me dekha to wo b muskurane ki nakam koshish krne lgi. Kia aap yahin qareeb main rehti ho? Maine baat berhai . Wo mere sawal  ko yakser nazrandaz kertay howe boli. Ap roz yahan aati hain? Haan mujhay BP cholesterol control me rukhney k like doctor ne baqaidgi see walk kerne ko kaha Hy aur..... Tum,,,, Kya tum bhi Roz aati ho? Maine tafseel see usay jawab detay howe aik aur sawal daagh dia.

Nahi main kabhi kabhi aati Hun. Mjhy sakoon milta Hy akaily yahan Beth ker. Apko pata Hy mujhy DUM ka marz Hy. Wo is'ter'rai'yaah andaaz me bejaan hansi hasssti howi boli.

Mujhay besakhta hansi aagai us k "DUM k marz" bolne pe. Dum'may ka marz hota Hy DUM ka nahi. Maine uski taseeh krne ki koshish ki. 

Nahi nahi mujhy Dum'may ka marz nhi ,,,, DUM ka he marz Hy. Dono main zameen asman ka farq Hy.
Wo bare aetimaad k saath boli thi.

Achaww... Tou agr bura na mano to mjhy farq samjha do. Maine hairat aur tajas'sus k see andaaz me us se aik aur farmaish ki.

Wo goyaaah howi.
Dum'may k marz me apko sans nhi aati. Apka dum ghut'ta hy. Ap inhailer see apna rukta sans bahal kerte ho.

DUM k marz main is k bilkul ulat hota hy . Dum seene main atak jata hy na niklta hy na teherta hy. Dil ki dharkan kbhi bohat taiz to kabhi bohat halki hojati hy per mushkil ye k rukta nahi. Is marz ki shiddat us waqt urooj per hoti hy jab ye banjer ankhain un logon ki ankhon main be'aetinai, rawaiyon main hee'tak, hmare wajood ki yakser faramoshi dekhti Hain, Jin per apne apni aik aik khawahish, aik aik khawab, apni Ana ki qurbani, yahan tak k apna hona faramosh kia hota Hy...

Shayad dosron k liye apne appko faramosh kerne ki saaza yehi Hy k Wohi hamain faramosh ker dain.

Ye DUM ka marz nizaah k aalam Jesa Hy hoo baahu.  Dum niklay to sakoon milay. Dum atakna moat Zindagi k darmiyaan Jesa Hy . Zindagi ki kashti ya to aar lagay ya paar lagay. Per Dum ka marz kabhi kisi ko na lagay.

Main uski batain sun kr
Sochne lagi shayad hum sub he apni apni jaga dum k marz me mubtila Hain.
Main bench se uth k park k khaariji darwaze ki taraf chal pari.

Written by Fehmida Chaudhary as on 7th May 2019

Durd e la'dawa

Are meray Rab mjhy apse siwaye moat k kuch nhi chaheye. Meray haq me kabhi kisi ki di gai Dua ko bhi qaboliat ka darja na dain. Kuch aisa kijiye k mere demagh ki shiryanain phat Jain aur in me lawa ban k behti aziat see Meri jaan chot Jaye. Mere seenay main atakti sanson ko rawani Miley , ye Dua bhi nahi Hy Meri. Bus meray Murda wajood main chalti ye garam sans ki dori ko alam' e' nizaah ki hichkiyon main badal dijiye. Meri ankhon main timtimate anson see bujhti umeed ki her kiran ko mere saath he gaur e qabr me madfun ker dijiye. Meri nas nas me sira'iyat is durd e la'dawa ko izn e rukhsat ki Naveed suna di Jaye. Zindagi k is zindaan see rihaai chahti hun mere Malik... Karam ki nazr kr wida krdy.
Ameen